“We must be willing to let go of the life we’ve planned, … to have the life that is waiting for us.” Joseph Campbell
I was 10 years old when my family went to 6 Flags Great Adventure. It was my first time on a roller coaster with my twin brother, and we were so excited, though our stomachs were tied in knots! I remember the attendant putting the measly safety bar down onto our laps. I looked at my brother just as the car started to move up the steep climb and scooted over to him. We lurched to the top and paused just long enough to take a breath.
As soon as the car dove over the edge, everyone screamed in typical roller coaster fashion. However, I wasn’t screaming. My body had left the seat and began to go over the front of the car! I grabbed desperately for anything, but the momentum and steep descent kept pulling me out. My brother frantically grabbed my belt and wedged me into the corner of the seat until we hit the bottom of the hill. I was petrified! We got off shaking, telling the attendants that the bar didn’t hold me in. They just looked at us and moved us along. I will never forget that day, so grateful my brother was there.
My body had left the seat and began to go over the front of the car!
There is truly no other way to say this as well as Prince Ea has in this video.
I thought this fitting before Valentine’s Day.
Fear isn’t an excuse to come to a standstill. It’s the impetus to step up and strike. ~Arthur Ashe
I wrote this letter to someone I loved dearly to let them go. It wasn’t easy, actually rather painful. But as I wrote the letter, I realized it not only showed how much I loved them, but how much I loved myself. When we love from the purest part of our hearts, we can truly allow that person the freedom to be whomever they finally choose to be. Free of fear, free of guilt, free of remorse, and free of being unloved. The letter below is an edited excerpt of what I wrote to him when he was struggling having to face where he was in his life and making some changes.
…I know I have to let you go…
“Have enough courage to trust love one more time and always one more time.” ― Maya Angelou
It’s hard when you are in a budding relationship and those words are spoken. They were told to me early on in a previous relationship sending an early warning sign to my heart. Being told you are ‘too good to be true’ sends a message that your actions and intentions are being questioned. It took me a long time to realize it was actually their issue of trust and being vulnerable, though as the receiver it can still hurt… a lot.
I had always wondered about those characters in movies that could masterfully manipulate their victims or cleverly get out of impossible death-defying situations. I am not one of those people. Yes, I’ve been blessed in many ways that have provided me wonderful surprises and memorable events, however I don’t have a manipulative mind. To manipulate someone for your own intentions means you aren’t receiving their authentic actions, either.
My Parents … A Lesson in Understanding
It is interesting to flash back through your life and realize the beginning of a new shift of thought. I was a eight when I saw my parents as fallible for the first time. I was cognizant of it when it occurred, and I withdrew into my own inner space afterwards. They had made an erroneous, prejudice remark about a playmate of mine, and at that moment I realized they were human. Children aren’t born with prejudices, they are taught. I felt it in my ‘gut’ that they were wrong, a strong pang right under my belly button. It was the first time I stood up and told them that their thoughts about my friend were wrong. They changed their stance after my argument, but I’ll never forget looking at them in a different way after that. I realized it was a lesson for me to learn about empowerment, and it has stayed with me for over 38 years. From that point on, I was to see each individual in my life as someone that was to teach me something I needed to learn. But my ‘gut’ was telling me more. Continue reading