“Have enough courage to trust love one more time and always one more time.” ― Maya Angelou
It’s hard when you are in a budding relationship and those words are spoken. They were told to me early on in a previous relationship sending an early warning sign to my heart. Being told you are ‘too good to be true’ sends a message that your actions and intentions are being questioned. It took me a long time to realize it was actually their issue of trust and being vulnerable, though as the receiver it can still hurt… a lot.
I had always wondered about those characters in movies that could masterfully manipulate their victims or cleverly get out of impossible death-defying situations. I am not one of those people. Yes, I’ve been blessed in many ways that have provided me wonderful surprises and memorable events, however I don’t have a manipulative mind. To manipulate someone for your own intentions means you aren’t receiving their authentic actions, either.
My Parents … A Lesson in Understanding
It is interesting to flash back through your life and realize the beginning of a new shift of thought. I was a eight when I saw my parents as fallible for the first time. I was cognizant of it when it occurred, and I withdrew into my own inner space afterwards. They had made an erroneous, prejudice remark about a playmate of mine, and at that moment I realized they were human. Children aren’t born with prejudices, they are taught. I felt it in my ‘gut’ that they were wrong, a strong pang right under my belly button. It was the first time I stood up and told them that their thoughts about my friend were wrong. They changed their stance after my argument, but I’ll never forget looking at them in a different way after that. I realized it was a lesson for me to learn about empowerment, and it has stayed with me for over 38 years. From that point on, I was to see each individual in my life as someone that was to teach me something I needed to learn. But my ‘gut’ was telling me more. Continue reading